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I got a problem
I wanna share it to you
I feel really sad now
I don't know if I can say the reason to you
Because it will be so awkward.
As in.
I don't have someone to share this problem.
Because I only share it to you.
But the thing is,
I can't tell it to you.
I feel so helpless.
All I can do is to keep it.
Is it my fault that I only share it to you?
I don't have any idea.
I'm so stupid
Dumb
Useless
Weak.
And probably this day,
All I did is to frown.
No, not only this day,
but also this week
No real smiles at all.
I'm afraid.
Totally afraid.
Afraid of rejections
failure
and future
'Cause all I see is the bad things
Please help me see the good side
ooops. I forgot.
You give me the bad sides.
I feel alone
in the middle of nowhere.
I feel limited.
Afraid of what might happen.
I'm afraid.
That when I take a wrong step
things might change
instantly.
You know what makes things worst?
Once it's done, there's no going back.
Once it's done, I'm alone.
No friend.
No one to talk with
like the same way before.
It happened before
And I don't like it to happen again.
Life is so playful
Suddenly,
things will not go under plan.
Because that smile in your face right now,
you never know when it will be gone.
Maybe tomorrow it's gone.
Because of unexpected things.
Am I making it complicated?
Sorry for that.
But that's how I feel
and see.
You're lucky
you got no problems.
For me? I have
And I can't do anything to it.
I don't wish to end this day
Because things are the same tomorrow
the day after tomorrow,
the day after the day after tomorrow,
And so on.
But I'll admit it
It's all my fault.
I'm not blaming anyone
or you.
It's all with me.
I just can't really help it.
But I am afraid.
Totally.
Afraid of the things that might happen.
Sad of what might happen.