nooooo

Right now I am face palming myself. I am crossing my fingers as I watch the draft of the movie. HECK! There's a lot of mistakes. Problems such as expositions, continuity and camera shots made it kinda hard for the audience to understand. Now I am dying and I wanna kill myself. 

I don't really think I can even put my name on the credits. I hate it. I really do. I hate it when time restrict you from doing something. Now it is done, I have no choice but to maximize my editing skills so I could, at least, try to make it better. I will learn from my mistakes and I will try to improve in my next videos. I am planning to make a short during the summer break so I could practice myself. But anyway, I am currently face palming myself for what a crappy composition I directed. I wish this would turn out great in the end. 

I think looking for a nice background music will help the film better. 

Teacher / Who am I? (#notdecidedwiththetitle)

Yow

Now I am currently engaged to directing a film for JSCB teacher appreciation day. The first day of the shooting was really tough and I thought of giving up already.

I was really stressed and I don't even know why. I think I am overreacting because we are not in schedule already. Our progress was slow and each scene would take us about 30 min. to get. I am actually asking myself if that is really appropriate. I think I have to improve my managing of the set better.
Before the actual shooting, I usually picture the scene in my head so I could get the ideal look in the film. However, due to some difficulties and we have limited time, sometimes I have to cut-off that idea and find an easier one. Sometimes I have to delete some parts so we could easily go through each scenes.
There are times also when kids are so rowdy that when you ask them to stay there they will usually run away or not listen to you at all. Sometimes, even the older actors don't listen as well. There are times also where the audio really sucks that it seems we didn't use any boom mic at all. There are also times where the camera handling is like Isabel Gapas' project for noli.
Then at some point I thought of giving up and canceling this short.

But then I can still feel the urge to continue. I asked myself, why do you still do it? Despite of the challenges, time constraint, inexperience actors and crew, and other problems the production can't control, we still continued to shoot. Why? Because it is art. Because it is our privilege to deliver message and change the world. It is our passion to work in collaboration and achieve the best as we could. Why? Because we love it.

Just a random thought

Just a while ago I am watching some cinemalaya short films and I wonder, why do most of them have zombies? Ehehhhh???? I find it kinda corny.

I have a goal in life to send an entry there and win awards. It's one of the steps to be successful in film making.
So here's how my story goes:

It is a love story and a sci fi.

There is this geek guy who fell inlove with someone else who tend to fall for him too. The girl have to leave for some apparent reasons. The guy will give her a necklace that lights up whenever the two necklace go near each other at around 15 m. He told it was a gift so they could remember always and when the time that they will meet again, then it would light up, in that way they could meet again and catch up with each other. They never told their feelings to each other.
After that, years will past and they will pass by one another and only the guy will notice that his is lighting up. He would try to find her but he always fail. The time continue to run but he never had a chance to see her. He frequently hear his necklace but he just can't find her. Till they got old, they never found each other. When they died their grave seems to be close wih each other since their families are close. Their necklace keeps making sounds until it finally run out of power.



And the end.

this morning..

Today was so epic.

In the morning I have to drop by a flower shop to buy flowers. I waited for around 10 min. there and tada! I have the flowers. I went to grade 8 room first then I went back to get the flowers. I didn't know that Myra and Athena is running after me. When I was in the escalator going up, Myra and Athena showed up and was like: move back, down now!!!
And I was panicking so bad I have to run downstairs. There's a student behind me so I have to push her to the side so I can pass by. It felt like I'm in a treadmill. I had a good workout just before the class starts.

Then I grabbed my guitar. We went to the creativity room and we practiced Just the way you are. That was really epic. We nailed the song. They were really good singers. I am just in the side rocking the hell out of my guitar. I was really tired after that.

Anyway I want to play my guitar again.. hohoho let's sing more songs

Hi

Hi

HOHO

We are previously tasked to make a short film about a life of a teacher. I am thinking of this one as a first step of mine when it comes to film making. This time, I'll be using the knowledge that I accumulated from youtube, and my past experiences.

However, right now I am tempted to get a shotgun mic. I am planning to get the cheapest mic I saw and that is Panasonic EM-2800 which they also used at Beauty and the Beast. I saw it on olx and it was so cheap - very cheap compared to other boom mics. However, the only problem I have is that, I might not achieve my expectations. At least, I want a boom mic that works great 1.5 meters away from the actor so we can boom it above. I am afraid that I might just be wasting money with that thing instead of just buying a more professional one on the near future.

But anyway, speaking of film-making, right now I am trying to improve on screen writing or how I can make something thrilling... yada yada yada.... What is amazing in filmmaking is that you have to master a lot of things such as:
- Techicals (Sounds, video, post production stuff, lights)
- ScreenWriting
- Acting
- etc.

And so I am only trying to improve things that is at my reach right now.

BB

HOHO


what a very long day for all beauty and the beast cast and crews.

This was supposed to be a blog entry about my experience in the backstage(how boring, dull, sad), but nevermind, I changed my position.

So I was at the back beside Alvin who plays with the lights and signals Josh. I was keeping the timing, raising my hand when we have to change the background, whispering words to Alvin like what is the next scene, or if the lights off is close, and finally keeping my nose stuck to the script to know the sequence.

But anyway, it is still a long way there before all of that happened.

I was the first one to arrived at school. (Yay) Then I was followed by Ben and his bro. For the mean time, we have to wait outside standing because the main entrance is closed. Then we were followed by Celeen. This time I am tired of waiting so I went to the k-3 area through the back door and I asked the guard whom I don't know if we are allowed to get inside; he said yes.

Then I called the rest. Just seconds after that Alvin arrived. Then he also joined us.

It was so dark and silent upstairs. We went to 3rd floor and stayed there for a few minutes. Then Alvin and I decided to check upstairs if it is open. When we where there, we noticed that the door was lock. Then I saw the window and luckily it was not locked. Then we called everybody to get inside,

Alvin and I parted ways first as I set the projector and he set the lights. I finished setting the projector first since it is just simple.

Then everybody started coming in through the windows, and finally the director was here. He told us to manage our synchronization (lights, backgrounds, and the sounds). While doing it, I realized that it might be a total failure since we won't be hearing Joel say "lights off". So I borrowed the presenter/pointer to sir Richmond so I can work with Alvin at the back.

Then we had a technical make-up rehearsal of everything. I saw a lot of defects with my ppt and timing so I tried my best to add some last minute changes after the rehearsal. I was seriously stressed at the backstage since I am not sure if I corrected everything already. Then I told myself: "just trust what you have there ---- ohh &^&Y I got 5 minutes before the audience arrive."

So basically I have no choice but to settle with the changes that I have.

Then I was so nervous at the back for I might fail.

I was really happy when we finished the play, there were no mistakes in my ppt, and my timing is miraculously correct. HOHO The play was seriously shocking for me. I thought we will screw up a lot but .. wow... the show continued to roll.

As I press the pointer, there are times where I accidentally click it at a wrong time. But, luckily, the receiver didn't picked up the signal.



Anyway.. It was so coool.

Sorry for the long post.

Film

Hello

Today is one of the most important day for me. Not because of beauty and the beast, but because I had a talk with Ms. Sara about film making and being a director.

Things didn't go well at first. When I first came to school, there's nothing happening. Everyone is waiting, waiting, waiting. I actually thought they are going to have the lights and the stage already, but there wasn't. As usual, within 60 seconds or so, I got bored.

Then  I saw Ms. Sara doing costumes so I followed her. I asked a lot of questions and I hope it didn't bothered her.

She gave me a view of how the industry works. Where should I join, should I go to film school or not, is it fun/worth it, how does it work, etc. etc. It kinda made me scared of it because it seems very impossible for me. First of all I don't have that much of money to support crew, actors, equipment, sets, etc. , and second I might not have the skills. I mean what if I am enjoying what I am doing but I am not really good at it. I see that there will be a big hindrance if I will push with this dream.
HAAAAAAAAAAAAA

right now, I don't really know what to do. AHAHA. I am not sure if I will be successful or if I can even produce an award winning film-- coz that is what it all takes to keep in track. But I am sure that I love this career.



Anyway bye.  

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Hello 

I need your help

which one is better: 

Escape

Hello yesterday I learned the most important thing that will be useful when I grow up.

And that is to.....



Escape


escape from conversation, meetings, and rehearsals. AHAHAH


Yesterday I did all of them within just 3 hours or so.

First escape is English class. Though it is not really my intentions to escape, it seems like it is my fate to escape. :P I don't know with Joel but he always call me even though he just need the actors. So when I went up to the MPH, Sir Kenneth was like: Ohh what are you doing here Joel?
Then Joel said on the other hand that we need to practice the sequence of the backdrops so I just stayed there.

Second escape is the JSCB meeting. Because of the beauty and the beast, I wasn't able to go to the meeting. I just went there late.

Third escape is the Beauty and the Beast. This is probably the best escape because I intentionally escaped here. I have to look for perfect timing, be aware of what is happening, and make sure I will fade away easily to the eyes of the people there. When I felt like I am not that needed anymore, I took my opportunity to escape.

Then I had a conversation that I think I don't need to mention.

Then I went to JSCB meeting and I think I attended 1/3 of the whole meeting.

FAILED FRIDAY

Today I experienced failure. :(

This morning, I planned to do the SS project. My target is to do the head which is one of the most complicated part of the tank.

The most complicated will be the feet. The one with the wheels and all that because honestly, I still don't have the picture in my mind on how to do it.

Anyway, back to my failure.

The first head that I did didn't really look good. The measurements is so crazy and it's hard to keep in track since it's an octagon with angles.

It was definitely challenging.

I know there are proper formulas to get the proper measurements but too bad, I don't have any idea of them.

But then I finished it with my instinct although there are open spaces. To solve that problem, we might be doing paper mache. It doesn't matter if the texture will be so dirty because we want that in our tank. It's like.. uhmm nvm just ask me ;)


Anyway, I saw this amazing video on youtube about cannons. I tried making the gun powder and the powder looks really incredible. I have a gun powder that burns really well. It was so amazing. I love the sound of it.

Then I made my own version of a cannon but it didn't go well. I think the problem is with my cannon.


So it's a total failure.
sad.

la la la

I'm bored.

Got nothing to do.

I'm now running out of idea on what to write here.

Maybe I'll just explain what's happening here.

So I'm just sitting here in front of my laptop and currently typing this entry. The temperature is high in this place.
My brother and I is the only person in the 2nd level. They are all downstairs doing their own businesses. The TV is on but no one seems to watch it. I turned it off a while ago but my brother turned it on again.

Outside I can see the sky blue sky which is directly in front of me right now. I can hear birds chirping and I can see some of them passing by.

I can see that my bedroom door is open. I want to stay there and turn on my AC but I don't know why what is stopping me from standing up.

Right beside me is an indoor plant. When I have my blow darts and gun I would usually shoot the leaves of this plant. My darts would penetrate the leaves. It somehow gives me pleasure when it penetrates and when I hear the sound created by the air pressure inside my blow gun.
Once, I was sitting in this exact spot at around 4 in the afternoon, I took my camera to capture something really great. The sun is perfectly lighting the plant that it caused me to put down what I am reviewing and grab my camera. I told myself that this might not happen again. It's like walking outside the streets then suddenly there's a solar eclipse. There were soft light and hard light. Some of the light looks really bouncy in the plant. The plant was like being engulf by the light casted by the sun. It lasted for 15 minutes only.


Anyway. that's it. bye