Spoiler Here. Spoiler there! I like them.
Here are some of my favorite movie spoilers:
These videos are art for me. The creator was very creative in spoiling. Not everyone can be sarcastic and creative like them. These videos offers people new ideas/view about the movie. I like to watch these spoilers before watching the exact movie in the internet. These spoilers makes me laugh while I watch the movie. I wish I can make one of my own.
OVERLOAD.
It was a waste of time last Saturday.
Due to lack of planning, I think we just wasted the day.
Actually, I think, we didn't fully accomplished a work last time.
The car was not good, the rocket is also not good, the Rube Goldberg is not good.
So we decided to repeat the Rube Goldberg Machine and the Rocket.
Whew.
I really hate it. It is okay for me to have grammar mistakes but not to fail in planning.
I want to focus in planning this year.
In planning, I have to weigh the quality and the time of the job.
I need that for future.
In planning, I always have back-up plans. I am not expecting that the first plan will always fail, but who knows right?
Now we have three things to do on Sunday. I am afraid that everything didn't went to plan. Next week must be the week where I can just be preparing for the exams, but it looks like that it is pretty impossible now.
Whew.
I am really afraid now.
Every minute is very important.
Longtest here, Project here.
Oh no.
Maybe I am just exaggerating things. I am that person who wanted everything goes under plan. I think that is why I consider my life boring. Boring because most of the things I do go under plans, expectations, etc.
But I have to say that it is helpful.
I don't hate my life, but I don't like it also. I mean, even though I hate my life, what can I do?
It is funny I can't have a definite satisfaction. I usually change.
Some say that humans don't have satisfaction.
Well I don't think so. Maybe it is just that we cannot define our satisfaction.
Sometimes I think, I am already satisfied having what I have. Sometimes I dream higher; there's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes I dream that someday, most of the people will respect and accept me. Also, I dream that someday, I'll be able to be famous, billionaire, serve as an inspiration, etc.
However, sometimes, I am thinking that I may not be still happy with that. Maybe I can be happy with something small. Something I am not expecting. Something so small that I can't see it now because all I dream about is the big thing. I think that maybe those big things won't have an effect on me.
But who knows?
Why would I care about my satisfaction?
Why can't I just continue living?
Why can't I just care about living and not about death?
Maybe I am just too curious. Now I have decided, I won't care about my satisfaction, I just want to live my life till I say that " I AM SATISFIED"
Maybe satisfaction cannot be predicted. You have to feel it first. Maybe you won't even know that you are satisfied already.
I just realize that I don't have that much of experience.
But a part of me is telling myself that I still don't have that something. I can't define that something, but maybe that thing is something I can be really proud of, something I can live with forever, something that I've been looking for.
How long can I keep this blog updated? I wish I can share to you that something I'm looking for.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
How would I like to die?
I wish we have the chance to choose on which way we wanted to die.
Some people say that they rather die without pain, die in age, etc.
I don't like to die because of age. Dying because of age is like waiting for your own death. I don't want to wait. Life is so beautiful to wait for your own death. Why would you wait if you can still do a lot of things?
Is everyone afraid of death? Is it because it's painful?
I am not afraid of dying. Dying is very exciting for me, because I don't know what will happen after I die. Am I going to have an afterlife? Or is there another universe that will explore my consciousness? But sometimes it is sad. Realizing that you can't see the people you know from your previous life. But who knows right?
Now I don't really care if death is very painful.
However, I wouldn't like to die in a accident,in a suicide, or homicide.I want to die for a good reason.
I want to die in a war.
I want to die protecting someone.
I want to die helping someone.
I want to die with honor.
I also wish to die if I will leave a very big legacy. It could be in terms of the field of science, industry of movie making, etc. I wish my name will be written in history books of my grand-grand sons. If I didn't get what I want when I am alive, then give me a chance after I die.
BUT IF ONLY I CAN CHOOSE.
Sometimes there are things that we have that we don't really need, but there are things that we wanted the most but we don't really have it.
I don't know where is my satisfaction. I don't know where it ends. But one thing I am sure with, it might be something really really big that I can't predict what it is, or it can be really small that I wasn't able to see it yet.
Everyone should have their own Bucket List.
Bucket list is not about the ice bucket challenge. It is about the things you want to do before you die.
I'm not saying that I am going to die soon, but we don't know right? Death is very surprising. If you don't want to live in a boring life, then have your bucket list. YOLO, You Only Live Once, they say.
Here are some parts of my Bucket List:
1.) Skydive!
Sky dive is very epic for me. It's great to feel the air pressing against you as you fall. I also like the feeling when your soul is being left behind. I want to skydive even once.
2.) Violate the rules
Following rules is boring. If I am going to die, I want cops to run after me. I want to feel adrenaline rush.
3.) Roam around the world.
I really like adventures. I also wanted to taste every food in every place I visit.
4.) Sleep with the girl I love.
Sleeping is very important for me. I like being relaxed. If you are thinking about sex, no that is not what I mean. That is very tiring, all I want is to relax.
5.) Have a one-on-one interview with the presidents, and high ranking officials of a country.
6.) Play table tennis with the world's greatest players.
7.) Save Someone's life.
8.) Own a horse, personal/private chef, car, 10 hectare rest house/resort, etc.
9.) Make a blockbuster movie.
10.) Fight in a war.
This is weirder:
11.) Time Travel!
12.) Meet an alien and have a lunch with it.
Done!! I didn't include those things that I did already.
What made me discover about the Bucket List?
It is because of this movie:
I recommend that you also watch this movie.
This is so great.
It will be a busy week for us.
Ugh!
How will you survive a week like this? You manage your time, and always plan ahead.
Managing time will help you complete task before the deadline. As I always say to my head: Don't let time control you, control the time. By using all the available time for doing something, all work could be fitted in a specific time. In time management, it is important to prioritize. Sometimes you have to let go the things that are not important and do the most important things.
Planning ahead is important so you won't be surprised by an incoming task. In planning ahead, it is important to have plan A and B. You should always have a back-up plan. You never know what might happen to your plans.
Wohhooo! Working! I love working!
I wish I can manage my time well!
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I like adventures so much. I like to explore things that I don't know. I want to learn things that I don't understand. This picture gave me a sudden thought:
and after viewing that photo this is what I feel:
Realizing how big is the universe, and comparing from how far I traveled, makes me feel so small and insignificant. We might be the superior here in earth, but we are not the superior of the whole universe. If only we can explore the whole universe no matter how infinitely big it is, then life will be so exciting.
I ask myself: What are we humans doing here? We still have a lot to explore.
I saw a lot of human limitations, but I also saw a lot of potentials. However, I wish I am still alive when humans learn to explore the universe by themselves, when humans discovered an alien, or when we learned to time travel. I wish before I die, I can witness something that I only see in science fiction. We live in a short period of time and we're so small compare to the universe. This makes me feel sad :((
I am done doing the blueprints for our science project, done answering
all home works, what can I do now? Now I don't have someone to chat with. What
is more frustrating is when that person keeps seenzoning you. Hayy, I feel like
wasting my time for doing nothing. But I enjoy here sitting on a new chair, and
staying in the new workplace. This keeps my mood up.
Let's talk about time.
Time is a very special thing. Without time, there is no motion, and
everything seems useless. Time is something we cannot buy. Time is continuous.
It never stop.
No one can clearly describe time. Even the scientist can’t clearly
define time. No one can even say what is the origin of time, or should I say,
when is the origin of time? Time is very interesting right?
Can we control time? It seems that time is the reason of all the process
here in the universe. What if we can curb the time? What if we can time travel?
I’ll discuss the Time Travel Paradox.
There are many different Time Travel Paradox, but here is one:
What if you time traveled and killed your grandfather before meeting
your grandmother?
Now this is where it gets crazy:
If you killed your grandfather before he met your grandmother it will
stop you from existing. If you stop existing, then you can’t time travel and
kill your grandfather. Will you die or will your grandfather will still exist?
What?
Here’s a video to explain it better:
Now back to what I am saying. Isn’t interesting that there are some
questions that we can’t answer or understand? For some people, it irritates
their head, but for me, it motivates me. It makes my mood higher.
Time is such a weird thing.
I suddenly thought: Is it important to understand everything? I like to
understand everything, but there are things that you don’t have to understand.
Those things makes life exciting and full of mysteries. Would you like to live
in the world where everything is answered? No, I don’t like.
If only I know advance physics I can explain to you more about time.
Where can I study advance physics? Well, I still have to wait until the
TIME comes.
A while ago, someone gave me a question, would you like to feel happy every time you wake up?
Well for me, I see that question as: Would you like to be always happy?
My answer would be no. Not yet. In this stage of mine, I don't like to be happy nor sad. I want to be neutral. Why? Being sad makes you a useless person. Being sad makes you lazy. Being sad makes your self-confidence go down. However, being happy makes you distracted and bias. When you are happy, you tend to see all the positive things, and not the negative ones. Your emotion changes your decision. For example, when you are happy, you tend to see things positively and you try to have hope that you can do it, even though it is impossible.
I don't like my feelings affect my thinking. I like my decisions to be messed up by the feelings that I have. I am better to work when I feel nothing.
However, is it bad to be happy or sad?
It's not also bad to be happy. Being happy motivates you. Being happy makes you believe that you still deserve to live in this world.
It's not also bad to be sad. After you overcome sadness, you tend to learn something. In that way, you can be a better person. You can realize something as you overcome sadness. You can realize that the things that you thought are not actually like that. Sadness gives you wisdom.
The thing is, you can't control your feelings. You can't stop yourself from feeling. You can't make yourself totally blind. What gives you these feelings? Your own doings and the people around you. It's inevitable. Maybe that's how life works. You can't have the absolute power to it. Just like a boat in a river. You can't control the river current by the use of boat. All you can do it go with the flow. Life is full of surprises and complex people. You can't predict what will happen. You can't have the absolute power of yourself. The society, the people, and the environment may have been controlling half of yourself.
September 11, 2014, we talked about freewill and Good Omens. I enjoy this topic very much. Unlike every discussion, this topic challenge my mind a lot. I describe this topic as a paradox. I like paradoxes.
We discussed about freewill, but later on, it turned out that we are talking about God.
Does God plan everything? If he planned everything, then we don't have freewill because everything lies on that great plan. Does that mean only god has freewill? I find it unfair that only the superior has the freewill. The reason why I don't believe in God is because whenever I ask a question about religion, it does not give me solid answer.
Does God control evil? Is the evil also part of his great plan? Based from the book Good Omens, the destroyer is sent by the devil. However, it is also stated there that the apocalypse is part of the divine plan. Does God have the control to the devil? Then which side is God actually?
In Good Omens, the apocalypse is not happening because of Adam's freewill. Does being a human or having the freewill overcome the power of God and His plan? Or is it because it is written on the plan of the God?
Even I didn't give any answers to them. Haha. But try to think about it.
I wonder why do people believe on that matter. Why do people believe in something that can't be explained. Maybe I am just too skeptic or blind to see. Either of the two, I enjoy these mysteries.
Here are some paradoxes in sentences:
1.Nobody goes to that restaurant; it's too crowded.
2.Don't go near the water 'til you have learned how to swim.
3.The man who wrote such a stupid sentence can not write at all.
4.If you get this message, call me, and if you don't get it, don't call.
5.ADVERTISEMENT: Are you an analphabet? Write a letter and we will send you free of charge instructions how to undo it.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Do you know the feeling when you want to chat to someone longer but you still have some things to do? Do you know the feeling when you turn your gadget off, you wanted to turn it on again and talk to that person? I always feel that almost everyday lately.
During the leadership training, I said that people leave a great impact to me rather than my own achievements like a good score in a test, or a good grade.
Anyway, that won't be my topic now.
Right now I'm sitting next to my best friend. And she's drawing a crow using charcoal on her sketchpad. I used to be an artist before. I can draw in a canvas or in computer. What made me transfer to music class? I just feel to. I like to experience both. I don't want to end my studies and go to an official work without experiencing them. Now, I think I enjoy more in guitar class. I think I can't leave guitar class next year or for the next years.
I don't really know why I am here staying, but it seems like I like it here. It's not everyday that I sit with my best friend. It's 3:22 now. Should I go home? :(( Now I feel it again. I want to stay here longer ,but I still have some things to do at home :((... Urggh.
It's now our time to leave, Kuya will clean the room. We head downstairs. She told me to go to 7-11, and so I went with her. I bought some chips for the others and bought a siopao for myself. Now I have to leave the school.
Sounds a normal day, isn't? For me it's not. It's not everyday that I go with my best friend. It's not everyday I go to 7-11. I like this day.
Lately I had a lot of encounter with the kids. Each one them
is noisy, funny, innocent, cute, etc.
Kids are innocent and fun to be with. They don’t worry about
problems, they just play as long as they have the chance to. Kids, unlike the
grown-ups or teenagers, don’t judge. Kids don’t hurt anyone. Kids forgive fast.
When I am with kids, I feel like I have right to talk. I am
confident to talk to kids because they won’t correct my grammar; I feel smarter
than them. When I talk to kids, they reply me good answers or funny answers.
Unlike the people with the same age with me who will just give me irritating
sarcastic answers.
Kids is comfortable to be with. You won’t be worrying that
they might be mad at you for a long time since they forgive easily. You won’t
be worrying that they keep anger within themselves.
Kids gives you a piece of mind. Kids let you forget your
problems. Kids entertain you. Kids reminds you of how fun it is being a kid. Kids
make you feel that you are like them.
I just really wonder why some people hate them. I wonder why
people get irritated when they just give you a weird smile or when they try to
get your attention. They are just trying to get your attention, and that looks
cute for me and heart-warming. When they do that, I suddenly think: “At least
someone likes my attention.”
I wish there will be more chances for me to meet them again.
Will science end? Science for me is infinite. It is not base on evidences, records, or materials that are existing. Science grow from our minds. A human is the soil of science. Science is there because of people's curiosity and hunger for answers. As long as there is a human existing, educated or not, science will be there. Even though it takes a billion of years of human existence, the answers for everything is uncertain. For every discoveries that we unfold, a new question boggles our minds. In this way, science grow. Our knowledge expand. I can relate it to our universe. The universe that we know now is very very huge; however, it is just our observable universe. It is just a part of the big universe, and we don't even know what's behind our observable universe, or what is our big universe. Everything behind our observable universe, just like the edge for answers, is uncertain. The uncertainty of edge of answers, the weirdness our universe, makes each scientist drool for science. Without questions, without the curiosity, science will be nothing.
I feel irritated when people change science for the others to be more interested to it. There is nothing bad exposing science to people, but the thing is, they modify it to be more interesting. Some news summarizes a science report too much that they don't actually matches to the real point. Some advertisement fake the facts for the consumer to be more interested. Some people agree in science when only a famous personality talks about it. Why do people add politics to science?
Science should not be the one to adapt to what is our likes, we should adapt to science. I wonder if there is a law regarding to spreading wrong facts. Why can't the gov't do that. In other words, people are like living in a fake world; full of misconceptions.
What I like about science is that, it is very different from religions and politics. Scientist are ready to accept if they committed a mistake or their discoveries is debunked/improved/judged. Scientist are ready to change their view. That is something I never saw in politics or religions. I think, this is the reason why, for me, science stands out over all subjects that we study in school. I wonder how do you become a scientist?
