HUHU

It was a very long day. --_--

I am really tired now and tomorrow will be having quiz and long exams. I must be dead after December.

December is a busy week. We have a lot of projects to do, exams to take, etc. HUHUHU I remember the movie "click". The character has a remote control, a universal remote control! That remote can control the time, sound, environment, etc.! What he did is that, he fast forward to things that doesn't want to experience such as suffering. In the end, he realized that he wasn't fulfilled in his life. He made things fast therefore, he had less time with his family. Suffering should not be avoided. It is part of life.
Well I really hope I have that remote control now. But I remember the Plan that restricts me from wishing. The Plan wouldn't go right if I am not prepared. Whatever the result will be, the planning and preparation for it is still the most remarkable.
OMG so EXCITED.
But there are many things that are stopping the Plan such as school requirements and myself. I have to manage the Plan and my responsibilities in school accordingly, if not, I might suffer the consequences in the future. Also, myself is also stopping me. I am still afraid of it. I still have doubts inside me. There is a quote "You are your worst enemy."

Good Bye!  

Hello

Hey.

I'm so bored now. I'm alone in here, and I haven't dropped any words.

So here's what will I do today.
Mandarin HW
Science Project
Guitar Practice

I really like our project for Science! I feel like an electrical engineer for making wiring systems.
I just realize that circuits are cool. I love laying plans/blueprint for anything. I love planning house. I really enjoy drawing with my ruler rather than drawing with my color pens. Sometimes I feel like being an architect.
Now this adds to my confusion again. Last time I want to be a cinematographer, digital artist, businessman, scientist, and now an Architect or an Electrical Engineer?
You kidding me?
If only I can do all at the same time. :((
But anyway, our group has to push through our schedule on saturday. I call it all or nothing. I can feel that we will be busy on the next weeks for we will be doing our project in mandarin, filipino, and the exams are getting nearer! This project wasn't planned that much. We planned this last tuesday, and now we will be doing it already on saturday. That's pretty wild. Good luck to our team. What I like about my team is that, each of them has their own natural talent for this project. RC is good in technical stuff but unfortunately he can't come. So Athena will take RC's job. Mathew is good with craft. I think he will be able to make the house better than anyone else.
Soooo we're set by saturday.
On friday I have to buy the materials already. This is going to be really tough.

I suddenly remember our rube goldberg machine. That project is really hard! I don't want to make another of that. Never, never, never,never.


Anyway, Bye!

Font --_--

Ohhhhhhhhhhh......
Now I have an excusee....

I don't know what's with my handwriting that sometimes it wanted to be understand but sometimes it doesn't.

"I have my own font." That's my common excuse whenever I'm being asked about my handwriting.
One benefit of bad handwriting is that, cheaters can't read it!
One disadvantage is that, teachers can't read it well, and sometimes, I can't read it too!

I tried practicing good handwriting but eventually, I will go back to my original font. That is something I cannot change.

Good thing that we didn't have typography lessons in our art class before. I will really fail!
I am not good in fonts! I don't have the sense of good fonts!
I don't know why I suck at letters.
 --_--

Element

Hey.
I've been thinking, what if we live in the world of Avatar?
What if we can bend specific types of elements?
If I will be given the chance to bend any of it, I will select air.
Air is calm and light. I really want to bend or to control it. Air was usually bent by Air Nomads (Buddhist People), but I don't want to be Buddhist. I just like the idea of air flowing smoothly, freely, and swiftly(Wind). Sometimes I dream that flying is cool. Also, you can have a staff! Air Benders use staff for flying. If you will ask me to select any weapon, I will choose staffs! What I only like about air nomad is that, they don't like to attack anyone; they are peaceful. Violence is never an answer for them. I find air kinda similar with me.  

Fire
Fire is definitely cool. Fire is my second option. Fire Bending has two kinds, violence and life. Fire is really dangerous. If fire is used by anger, you cannot control it. Fire will kill you. But, if you understand Fire as life, you can control it well. Fire is power. Fire is for those people who wanted power. Power is their defense.

Earth
The toughest element in Avatar. In order to bend Earth, you must be tough and brave. Be like a rock! This is for those people who greatly excel in perseverance. Earth requires a lot of hard work. As an Earth Bender, you must endure all the pain and wait for the time to strike. What I like about Earth bending is that, you can bend a lot of things. A normal bender can bend earth. But a special bender can bend metal and lava.

Water
Water is very practical in Avatar. Water focuses on acceptance, elegance, and healing. Water is for those people who are practical and wanted beauty in life. By water bending, you can heal, turn them to ice, vine bend, and the deadliest, Blood Bend. Blood Bending is the darkest side of water bending. Blood Bending is harmful that's why it is restricted in the world of avatar. There are very few blood benders. By Bending Blood, you can control and paralyze one's body.

Now, which element do you prefer?

hey

Hey.
Check this out:

Cute cute cute characters!

It only took me 45 min. to construct them. I think, when you love what you are doing, you will really give the best. 

Love is powerful eh?  

But I still don't fully understand it.
Love is tricky, sometimes it brings madness, jealousy, and grief, but it also bring peace, care, etc.
Imagine a world without love. Wouldn't it be great or bad? No one will be sad if someone died for they don't love anyone. No one will suffer if they are rejected.
Love is so complicated. I can't fully understand its purpose. Can someone understand?
I don't know.
If love is a necessity, why does some people doesn't value someone's love for them? If love is a necessity, why are there people who can live alone?

The world is so complicated. One idea against one idea confuses my mind. Can someone fully understand the universe? Christians will say that only God understands the universe. I find that kinda unfair. Christians will say that we are just humans; God is the highest. I don't like limits. I don't like rules. I don't like something right, or wrong. Because there is no right or wrong. The world is full of choices. Something will be right if everybody believes on it. Something is going to be wrong when someone higher than you disagree with it. Is there a universal rule? I don't know.

Field Trip!!!!!!!!!!!!

The field trip was tiring, fun, and memorable. Though it is not the best, it will still be remembered for the next years.

A lot of things happened during the field trip. I found the field trip a good way to relax from the school stuff. It was fun, being a kid again. I experienced what I haven't experienced for a long time, and I think I almost forgot how it feels like--- to have fun and be childish. I will never forget this field trip. 

When I wake up, it was 3:50 AM. I set an alarm and I woke up on time, but since I'm not in the mood to stand up, I slept again. I wake up at 4:50, and I know I am late. >.< When I opened my eyes, I immediately went to the bathroom and take a bath, then I ate, and I set off. There was no traffic since it is still early. When I was dropped off the school, I saw them going out already. I was just in time. 

I sat in the back of the bus together with my classmates. There was only two of us in the back of the bus. There was extra seats but since no one is there, Mathew and I occupied them. 

Then the tour guide started speaking. The tour guide was not that catchy. I can't focus on her, so I didn't know what's happening. She can't capture my attention.

Then we had program. I think no one is listening at the back, for we have our own program there.

  So there, people danced and sang in the bus. 

After that, we arrived to our first destination! Sweet Field Trip. 

Right after we stepped to Sweet Fieldtrip, we had a group picture :)) The people in the Sweet Fieldtrip are very hospitable and kind. We gathered up in the assembly hall then the program started. 

The Program started with opening prayer to be led by RC the Atheist. Ironic right? After RC had his opening prayer, the people in the sweet fieldtrip taught us morning exercise. I am clearly not in the mood to do the exercise, but I tried pushing myself to dance. During the program, they shared to us the things they want us to learn, or their core values. I can't really remember all of it, but what I remember is: Health and Discipline (And I am not sure if this is even right.). After the program, bus 1 and 2 was separated. We, bus 1, went to their showroom first. They are good in craft. Taking pictures was not allowed so I have nothing to show you. Their craft is very colorful and beautiful. Crafting is really hard, it requires hard work, creativity, and tons of planning. Anyway, after we went to their showrooms, we went to their bakery--- no wait, it's "Bakerie". I bought some pastries there. Then we had another program, in there, they showed a puppet show, they taught us how to make pizza, etc.

After the second program, we played Filipino Traditional Games, or Street games in the Philippines. The first game was tumbang preso. 

While the kids play, I got bored, and I think the whole grade 8 got bored also. So we gathered up in one place. 

It's not boredom that is my main reason why I group with them. I just want to be close with-- you know. But since socializing is not my habit, I started thinking something deep, then grade 8 was gone. Jane and tom was only there when I went back to reality. I think they roam around the place. So when they announced that it is lunch, Tom and I got our lunch and waited for them to arrived. I eat fast, so I show some magic tricks to the lower grades, and to some of my classmates. I think they know my tricks so it's a fail --_--. 

Then we set off for the next destination. This was the most boring part of the field trip. Everybody was sleepy after lunch. But I am still wide awake, and hyper. I was really bored that time. 

 Finally! We arrived here! 

I love plays! Especially when there is light effects! The last play that I watched was Aladdin in MITIS. I wish that we could have it again. 

We arrived so early in the venue. We waited so long for the play to start. I am really excited to watch the show that time. 

In order to kill the boredom, I played with kids, especially Ethan. 

After the long wait, we can finally go inside. As we go inside, I felt sad. It was crowded. I was on the other side, opposite to her. The crowd blocks my view of her. It meant a lot for me. As soon as the crowd was gone, she was gone too.

But anyway, the play will start! The show was really funny, I don't really like the magic because I know how they all work, it's easy to bust it. I appreciate the production, there must be tons of preparation for such play. The lighting was good, the effects was good, the character is good, the sound quality is good, and of course, the bubbles are great! It smelled like joy after they rain us with bubbles.

But it ended quickly :((. I wish that it was longer. After the play, we went home.
I was a bit disappointed when the field trip ended like that.
But when we are near the school, there was a small party held.

Everybody was so higghhhhh!!!!!!

"Party! Party", they all shout. It was the most exciting part of the fieldtrip. 

That is the end of our fieldtrip. 

I viewed the photos in my camera the day after the fieldtrip. I don't remember that I took some of them, but I enjoyed viewing it.

This fieldtrip will always be remembered. What a nice break! It was refreshing to the mind. But anyway, back to normal day. Good Bye! 

Believe

Hey.. wassup.
this is not my project yet, but this is going to be about a part of the fieldtrip yesterday.

After the long wait,
finally the show will start.
We were lined up to the entrance
to the right.
I was so excited,
and it feels like no one will break it.
After a while, the course have changed.
The entrance was on the other side.
The line that we formed was destroyed
Then the crowd was rushing through the other way.
Perplexed by the direction of the line,
I was.
I thought of you, I wish you are fine
I saw you on the other side
with your friends by your side.
Will I ever get to you,
With this crowd like a river?
The crowd is rushing
The time is rushing.
Can I pass through this obstacles?
I don't know.
No I can't.
But what if I try?
No the crowd will just push me inside.
But what if I really try?
No, it's impossible.
FINE! I will.
But you were gone.
The darkest of time
is when I lost sight of you
Are you still there?
I can't see you.
But I know you are there.
I believe.
'till when will I believe?
Belief makes me stronger
Only belief.
Belief.
Such a big word.
Such a promising word.
Such an uncertain word.
I hate to believe, for I want is to see.
Belief,
Is what I only got.
Is what makes me stand up
Is what makes me smile.
Belief is like a smoke,
Small, useless, and weak
But it shrouds your sight
with illusions far from reality.



 

Ant

Hello.
I'm currently doing nothing, wasting my time, on things that are too small to be credited. I have useless thoughts in my head, crazy ideas, and weird imagination. I don't know if someone will admire the thoughts that I have, or I don't even know if it's worth it.

And lately I feel so small, too small to see the track to follow. I feel like an ant, on a road. I don't know if time overruns me, or I am just too slow to cope with things. I'm not even sure, if I'm doing the BEST thing. The universe is so big, ready to be explored, and I am just here, sitting next to my laptop, doing something small. Compiling all the achievements I have done for 14 years, I couldn't describe how small it is. After all, if I will die in any moment, in just years, I couldn't be remembered. But maybe I'm just really starting my journey, thus more things will come. Until when will I say that?
Things that are too indefinite creeps me out, such as future. But what can I do, I'm just a little ant on a road. Should I follow the the other ants on their line? Or should I take my own path. And maybe in any of those path, I could see something the others was not able to find, or maybe, I could just be wondering in the middle of vastness.  
   

Rosetta

Heyyyy!!!!!!

Good Morning! 

Again, I woke up so early, and I can't figure out why. But anywayyyyyy

Yesterday I am working on a character. I find it really cute! 

Rosettaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is a cartoon version of Rosetta and Philae. Rosetta is orbiting a comet. Though there are also different probes that get close to a comet, this is the first time that we can land on a comet. Philae will land in the comet and it is known as the 7 Hours of Terror. Philae successfully landed on the comet and ready to give data to Rosetta, then Rosetta to earth.

This is a great achievement for humanity. Anddddd it's not from NASA but from ESA, the European Space Agency. 

Btw, I didn't conceptualize the character, I got it somewhere. ;) 

Cute

What is cute?
I find cute very amazing. Cuteness is really great. Cuteness somehow stimulates my happy mode. I still don't know what makes something cute, but I am sure with one thing: it confuses me!

I really wish to draw cute characters and drawings. I never did one. Yes I copied cute drawing but the thing is, I never made my own. I never formed a cute image from my head.

Lemme describe cute.
Being simple is cute. It's not dramatic but very solemn and mild. That's why I like it.
Being small is cute. I don't know but things that are smaller seems cuter!
Being playful is cute: When a character is playful, it gives me a happy mood. I don't know how to describe.
Being sweet is cute: showing a bit of love and care is really cute!

Etc. etc.

I am not really sure whether cuteness is constant for everyone, or if we have the same view about cuteness. For example, I am seeing someone, and I know that someone doesn't look really cute for them. I mean, some would just laugh by his/her proclamation of being cute. But for me, he/she is really cute! Totally..... There's this one time that I stared at him/her for a long time, and things got really awkward. Stunning!

Hello

Siguro nga't ganto talaga ang estidyante

Hindi kami natitigilan ng gagawin

Ako lang ba? O kayo din?

Parang magkaiba kasi.

May gagawin akong isang dula

Ito ay simple at pambata.

Ngunit ito rin ay mahirap

Pagkat kailangan mahuli ang kanilang mga dibdib.

May gagawin din akong brochure

Pasok ba sa oras? Di ko ako sure

Pero tingin ko ito'y masaya.

Kaya ito'y kayang kaya!

Plano kong tapusin ang lahat

Bukas ng sabado, umaga hanggang gabi

Walang laro, o iba pang panggulo

Para matapos ng buo

Dinadapuan na ako ng antok.

Ay nako! Pakisuntok!

Sayang ang oras na aking itutulog!

Napakarami ng aking magagawa

Pero hinihintay ko rin

Na gumawa ako ng isang tula

Para sa filipino, tungkol sa Iphone 5

Siguradong ako'y matutuwa!

Wala akong alam sa Iphone 5

Dahil wala akong hilig dito

Walang saysay ang pagbili nito

Dahil may computer at Ipad na ako.

Ayaw ko rin dahil hindi ito praktikal

Naniniwala ako na ito'y pangporma lang

Mas maraming cp na mas maganda

Mura na, mas maganda pa.

Pero bahala kayo

Iyon lang ang aking punto

Hala paano na ito

May gagawin pa pala ako

I'll post another blog! I'm just waiting for my laptop to finish it's update for windows 8.1.

Tula

I'm not good in english poetry so lemme try it in filipino.

Anong mayroon sa gabi't; ika'y iniisip
Nais makatulog, aking pinipilit
Bakit kaya ika'y palaging nililirip
Puso ko nga naman, sadyang makulit!

Palagi kong napagtatanto na marami akong nasayang
Na mga sandali, mula sa nakaraan.
Bakit ngayon ko lang nakita
ang tunay mong kahalagahan.

Ano ba ang aking kailangang gawin?
Upang ako'y iyong mapansin
Eto na nga, ako'y ala-makata
Kahit hindi naman ako palatula

Ano itong sinasabi ng aking bibig
Hindi ko makontrol, sa bugso ng pag-ibig.
Di bale na, ayokong itago
Itong tinitibok ng aking puso.

Ako'y umiibig sa isang babae
Di ko kinalilimutan sa araw at gabi.
Nais ko sana sabihin ang ngalan
Ayaw niya, kaya 'wag nalang.

Alam ko ang sakit, na naghihintay sa akin
Pero kahit ano man 'yon ay aking pipilitin
Aking iindahin, ang mga parating
Na mga batikos mo at nila saakin.

Ako'y inis na inis na
Ayoko maging sobrang tapang.
Pag umiibig ka nama'y walang kinakatakutan,
Pinipilit magbulagbulagan.

Hindi ko alam kung hanggang salita lang
Itong aking pagmamatapang.
Sigurado, pag ako'y mahina,
Ay agad-agad babagsak

Kailan ititigil itong kabaliwan?
Malay ko, walang pakialam.
Basta ang alam ko ay ako'y may sinisinta
Gagawin ang lahat para sa kanya.

Marahil ako'y OA na
Patawad po, pasensya
Akoy walang magawa
Kaya eto, nagdadrama

At ngayon ito'y aking wawakasan
Pagkat ako'y magaaral na
Hayaan ninyo't may susunod pa
Paalam na.

Sandali lang mga mambabasa
Marahil ay iniisip ninyo kung sino siya.
Wala akong tinutukoy na sinuman
Isip ko'y aking pinalalaruan lamang

Aking sinusubok ang aking kakayahan
Sa pagtugtugma ng mga salita
Mahirap kasi magisip ng paksa
Kaya ko nagawa itong tula.

--wakas--

   

Wassup?

This morning I practiced the intro of More the Words by Extreme. The melody is really great. I really really love it! I just don't like the message --_--. 

So there, I learned the intro then I stopped there. I just don't really like playing the whole song. It's tiring and time consuming. I wish I can sing... wahahaha. I don't really sing. I think I have a bad voice, so I never sing at all.

Yesterday I shared to someone some of my ideas about the movie to make in mandarin. I know that my classmates don't really have the same taste with me when it comes to stories and movies. I really like action movies, sci-fi, post-apocalypse, or apocalypse. I don't really like romance, drama, family matters, school, or teen shows. You will never make me watch disney movies. I hate disney movies. Reason: it's musical! Duhh. So corny. I just hate it. I don't like movies that's portraying usual, realistic problems. Like someone have to leave, or someone got terribly sick, etc. etc. I want something extraordinary! Something unique, or something unrealistic. Something that won't pretty much happen in real life. You may think that I am describing fantasy, but no. I am describing fiction, that is not fantasy, such as sci-fi. 

But anywayyyy, yesterday I watch some cinematography tutorial. I didn't knew that there is a rule called "rule of thirds". I learned camera angles and movements. But I really want to have my own style in camera movement--- right now, I don't have any. I also discovered Andrew Lesnie. Andrew Lesnie is the cinematographer or the director of photography. A cinematographer is responsible for giving the movie a really great look. He just worked for LOTR, The Hobbit trilogy, king kong,  I am Legend, etc. He just started as a cameraman before. As he learned styles and techniques, he was promoted. He became really famous. He's really cool.  

Good Bye! 

Video Making

3 hours of editing
4 hours of rendering
7 hours of making the video
3.2 GB damage to the disk

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I enjoy making videos. What I don't like about it is that it takes a very long time. It also consumes large size to the disk.
Also, I can't edit video anytime. Before I can edit, I need a lot of media files. I need footage, background music, sound effects, picture, etc. That's why I still prefer photoshop.
But it's fun. I really want to be a professional cinematographer. Last summer, Ms. Sara offered a summer class for video making. I really want to join!!! But I didn't know the reason why I did not join.  :(((
What I also don't want in video making is the materials. It is inevitable to use an HD Camera in video making. Professionals also use different various of lights, mics, slider, tripod, etc. Being a cinematographer is a complicated thing to do. In order to be professional, you have to always mind your camera shots, lighting, sounds, actors, effects, etc.
I know I am still way, way, way, way, way, far from the level. But I will not stop trying to learn how to be one.

I am starting to hate myself. I can't satisfy on one goal. For example: I can't focus on art. I can't also focus on science. I feel like I want to learn more things that are somehow unrelated to each other like music or art. I am afraid I still don't have any idea on what course to take in the future.
         

Arf Arf

I was beaten by a dog! Yay.

It happened yesterday night. It's just small anyway.

I really don't know what's wrong with dog bites, for everyone's seems OA. It's just really small. First, we went to RITM. Since it's not really an "emergency" I was not administered by  injections, it's only for monday-friday (8:00 - 4:00).
Wait what?
That means I'm gonna be late tomorrow.
Yay --_--.
Then we decided to check on Asian Hospital. They can inject me already but it cost a lot (33,577 php).
Like srsly?
It's a really small bite and It's that expensive.
Gosh!
So we decided that to just have it on RITM.
Haha, so if any of my classmates is reading this, I'm gonna be late tomorrow.

Lesson learned: Not all dogs are your friend.
Looks like I'm going to have series of injections tomorrow. Gosh!

Good Bye.

hello

I'm clearly not so busy today. 

There's only four of us left in the house since the others went to their province. You know, it's november 1. 

HAHA 

Many good things happened to me this day. 

First: NEW EPISODES! 

Finally! I watched Starwars: Rebels and Legend of Korra. I think the update is weekly so I gotta check that every saturday. 

2nd: New Game! 

I downloaded Call of Duty 2 yesterday and now I am playing. I know my game is kinda outdated already, but that's what my pc can hold. Besides, I don't really like the new issues of COD since it's all about modern warfare and black ops. I prefer the old ones of course. I prefer WWII and WWI in games rather than the modern thing. In modern warfare(COD) it seems really easy and the battle is fast paced. 

Actually, in war games, I prefer the old classical way of fighting. Such as, sword fight, archery, siege, etc. They are the best. That's why I am hoping I can play any of the Assassin's Creed game. 

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Woah A lot of people is on vacation right now. I mean vacation outside the country or city. I really want to go outside the country. I hate a lot of things here in the Philippines.

Gov't: There's no way the gov't can give it's full service to its citizen. 

Food: It's great, but I want a different taste. 

Streets: It's really dirty in most of the streets here in the Philippines. 

Traffic: It's so heavy. 

Science and Technology: No advancement? The gov't and other institutions don't really care about science and technology. Duhh?!?! If you are going to tell me that we also have say about science and technology, sorry, but I don't feel it.

It's really hard to live in a developing country. But I have no choice, I gotta deal with it.   

etc. 

etc. 

etc. 

So I really wish to leave Philippines. I am actually planning to migrate somewhere in the future. 

Good Bye!