Video Making

3 hours of editing
4 hours of rendering
7 hours of making the video
3.2 GB damage to the disk

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I enjoy making videos. What I don't like about it is that it takes a very long time. It also consumes large size to the disk.
Also, I can't edit video anytime. Before I can edit, I need a lot of media files. I need footage, background music, sound effects, picture, etc. That's why I still prefer photoshop.
But it's fun. I really want to be a professional cinematographer. Last summer, Ms. Sara offered a summer class for video making. I really want to join!!! But I didn't know the reason why I did not join.  :(((
What I also don't want in video making is the materials. It is inevitable to use an HD Camera in video making. Professionals also use different various of lights, mics, slider, tripod, etc. Being a cinematographer is a complicated thing to do. In order to be professional, you have to always mind your camera shots, lighting, sounds, actors, effects, etc.
I know I am still way, way, way, way, way, far from the level. But I will not stop trying to learn how to be one.

I am starting to hate myself. I can't satisfy on one goal. For example: I can't focus on art. I can't also focus on science. I feel like I want to learn more things that are somehow unrelated to each other like music or art. I am afraid I still don't have any idea on what course to take in the future.